Ab0ut Mi
Name : Celine Tham
Age : 22
D.O.B : 5th June 86
Horoscope: Gemini
Email : Cuttie0506@hotmail.com
School: CPS -> QTSS -> NYP -> Currently workin @ Creative + studying
L0ves to..
^L0ves t0 s|p^
^L0ves t0 watch tW 0u xIang ju & hk sh0ws & kOrean shOws^
^L0ves sh0pping^
Wanna geT theSe s0on
^Europe^
^I want Wii Wii Wii^
^Wishes come true, hee^
[[.blOggiE .]]
Thursday, October 25, 2007
haiz... today no xFamily to watch... show already finished... so sad... have been watching this show since 9th Aug (8th Aug is the 1st epi)... 2mths pluz le... 55 episodes not enough... started to miss the show... everyday when i reach home, 1st thing to do is to on my laptop to load my xFamily...but today i didnt.. so strange...
**decided to watch the show from epi 1 again soon...**
my hamster died today... TT
Last week went to Malaysia... trip still okay... just like what i expected...
Saw my aunties, uncles and cousins... o.. can't recognize my cousins le... changed alot..
So angry about the place "power"'.. haha.. i mean the pace kip having power failure... my laptop is old le.. without battery, so can only depends on the adapter, which means i have to on my switch then can use... Saturday, from morning to afternoon, my laptop was shut down about 4-5times (due to power failure).. heart gg to break le... my ke lian de laptop TT ...
Malaysia the wedding is so different from Singapore... there's KTV there, for people to sing and dance... more "sound" than Singapore de..
Okay la.. enough of the wedding le..
This week, there's another farewell lunch le.. seems like more and more people leaving le..
Can feel more and more pressure = stress after my ro told me some stuffs..work is so hard... to those people who are still studying now... enjoy ur days now... working is not easy... haha...
Yesterday went to sing k with shihui... JE de kbox system upgrading.. in the end we went to clementi de.. JE de system upgrade very long... my sis Friday went already upgrading le.. finally got my "chu shen ru hua" le... have been waiting for this song veri veri long le... hehe... after that went lido watch "huang yi zhen" --> title should be correct... show still okay... not as gd as what i expected... haha.. sounds so different from shihui's de... after that went shopping.. dinner then home... that's my Saturday..
And today s already Sunday 4pm...omg... soon nite, sleep, then work again... arrrr... how i wish i can take one week off and stay at home rot...
oya..wanna share a good news with u all wor... realise my "xFamily" got 55episodes instead of 50.. i'm so happy... though the show gonna finish on this coming Tuesday.. hehe... and the new show after that is "It started with a Kiss 2".. yeah... haha... this good news i think only mi happy ba... hahaha..
"Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Tree
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The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime, I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us.
She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off.
The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heartache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
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During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting.The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
Wind
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Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her.
Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone.
I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?"
She said, "I'm nodding my head".
"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.
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feel like sleeping now~~ my dear bed, i'm coming soon...
it's 1.50am now... still not sleeping... know why? hee, because tomorrow i'm on leave... and why i'm on leave? because i'm going to malaysia tomorrow, and why i'm going? because my sis will be holding her second wedding dinner there.. haha... so many why(s) and because(s)... will be back on sunday le... u all don miss me too much wor.. ^^
received gifts from my sis... she's back from honeymoon... ooo.. she bought some clothes for mi..and of course my dear donald duck from disneyland.. so cute.. will take & post the picture when i'm free...
haven pack my stuffs yet.. mi so last minute... Just now went k with my colleague.. before going into the room, we told ourselves to leave @ 10pm.. in the end, we sang until 11.20pm... haha... we always cheat ourselves de.. (but there's really a time we kip our promise wor) today my ro had a discussion with us... was told that they will hire one more people to join our team wor... and i will pass part of my current job scope to that person... and i will take over new stuffs... excited and worried.. haiz.. (think the new person come in will be around next year le).. Finally will be doing something different le... hope that i will still be the youngest @ there (even if the new person join.. cause they say want to hire a new grad).. haha... it's so good to be the youngest.. although i don noe why.. haha.. recently more and more people the bday coming up le... got my colleague nx wk, kailing's end of mth, ray's @ nov, colleague's bday x2 and then last is josh... and its 2008 le... arrr.... getting older again.. TT...
Hmm, stopping here le... i have tried my best to write long long le... will update more when i'm back from malaysia..
Miss ya~~ and miss mi too wor.. haha (",)
very cute combination of snail & hippo